I have learned in the early years of my youth, that I am addicted to the web. I was probably online more idling in my middle school years rather than doing something productive. Like watching more cartoons or learning all about pop culture. I rejoice now that I finally have internet at the apartment (haha while I'm about to leave in another week or two). When I think about the flowers, feeling the warm sun touch my face, sitting down on the bench and drawing, continue to imagine, but never really have that "down time" to do so. And it's because I find some excuse to stay online. I always find something to do on the computer, whether it is searching for scholarships, reading up on random places, downloading comics to read, chatting...and that time just drains me away. I find a way to be lazy, make excuses not to go to so and so places, in my mind it's just so far away. Those with a car would eventually drag me to go since they would pick me up from my place. I just hate transporting time (Ironically I have no qualms spending 14-15hrs on the plane).
On Monday, though I woke up early and got breakfast with my friend, I was planning to study some more for my Micro quiz. My class was at 3:30, and by the time we were done with food, it was probably 10 am max. I sat at the coffeeshop, browsing through, mind wandering, chatted with my professor since he was around, then afterwards I saw my friend and we started chatting, then sitting down to chat, and just embracing the summer weather outside and talking about life. It was weird...it was about 2 when he had to go and I realized how hrs later I have woken up, I have not studied (though I did so the past 2 days). Time went by so fast that I just wondered how I could have just sat around all that time. It was a nice lazy feeling, something I haven't done without feeling guilty about it. I always feel like I don't have enough time, or I need that time to be doing such and such.
My eyes have probably gone worse from staring at the computer screen so much this semester, probably the only time my vision stayed the same was when I was in Japan that year as an exchange student. I just realized how difficult it is to break away from such a bad habit, as most of my friends are not in the vicinity, so the only time I get to "see" them is when they are online and since I don't watch tv, that's the only way I hear about news.
Maybe I can break away from that habit this summer...depending where I'll be.
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Good for people to know.
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