In a blink of an eye, another month is about to pass. I've never expected that time would fly by so fast, faster than when I was in Belgium. I'm at the point where I suppose I've finally hit that block of panic. Panicking about what? I'm not too sure. I really came here to expect the unexpected, meet some people, shop and eat. Despite the decent program itinerary, I have found that China really grows on you. I've made Chinese friends, talk to a lot of people, and just been more around the socializing scene than in Belgium. Basically I'm turned into a girl. I know way too much about everyone. Some I can handle, the rest I prefer not to know. It is great to have amazing friends here and I realized how if I put effort, I can really get a good sense of what they're feeling. Minus some moments...okay I'm not a stalker lols.
Then while I was in my slump today, I realized that other people's moods really do affect me. If I hang around certain person(s) for too long, I see the negativity in life, and basically end up in some twisted sarcasm that might as well be fit for some murderer. Then I realized how hanging out with one of my really good friends here has opened me up for the better, or well the more vulnerable to being happy. However, the world seems a little wrong when my friend has one of those silent irritated days once in a blue moon and it brings me down as well.
And thus, as I was playing pool today, I contemplated about how I'll be leaving my friends here, my moments of happiness with friends that were forged within a few weeks.Life suddenly becomes either longlasting...or cheap. I will understand if I don't see some of my friends that I made here back in the US one day, for our roads only briefly merged on our way to our goals. But I dearly hope, they will one day remember me, and at least think back to all the memories we had hanging out, and say, we had an awesome time, and she was a great friend (and really meaning it). Cause, I hope I will do the same too.
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