Gut Feelings

I guess along with self-destructive, plenty of gut feelings take place but you go against it anyways. On my way to the library early in the morning- sucks to even mention that part, but I thought of the things gone wrong and how I knew it from the moment I made the decision. I guess I'm a pretty bad decision maker then huh?

Sometimes I feel like I settle for less but ask for more. So I'm never satisfied. Apparently in the nonprofit fund-raising world, that's good...having tenacity, but I just feel like days like today (when its wet and cold outside) I just don't want to deal with people. Or maybe that's me and my days of pms. Just days of utter bs where I don't feel like dealing with people. Like I tend to read people of course because it is part of human nature, and then I see how they are, and I give most a second chance to improve my readings since most are utter crap. I guess its worse today when I do more sit around and observing since I generally already don't talk too much (depends on who it is for sure of course). It's annoying trying to be a good person. Sometimes I wonder where the karma went.