Perhaps I'm Numbed Out

So, not to sound like a wimp, but due to intense dislike, mental exhaustion, and frustration with the moral ethics of the job and quite unreasonable deadline (though I guess 20hrs for a plagerized copy of lonely planet guide, though definitely with more facts and figures, is probably about the right idea if it is all copy and paste), I finally cracked when I called my parents up about how I'm not enjoying my work. I'm sure many people find themselves in positions where they loathe their jobs but continue to do it for the money. Or supporting their family.



So, when I told them how I was really unhappy in what I'm doing more because I have to go to work everyday, then deal with a boss who is just some woman who is stressed due to 4hrs of sleep every night, and at her age should learn her body should not take that type of abuse, as it affects the way she interacts with everyone at the office. I've come to terms with the fact that she can be labelled as quite egotistical. To be verbally abusive to an employee whose 1 year contract is up and does not wish to renew is unprofessional. As she would imagine that most people would stay in their jobs for more than a year, as back in her day. However, it is common to switch jobs early in the career to gain experiences from various companies, rather than limit themselves to one. Actually long term employment with one company can seriously affect the other jobs as well, as potential employers question "you've been there long, so why quit now??"



Anywho back to me. Perhaps I'm exaggerating and making this a full blown up drama that doesn't need to be. I mean, by now everyone has heard my "bitching". It's actually quite embarrassing to be using that terminology, especially for a job and that seems to be all they hear as of lately. Is that all my life is worth? Words full of complaints?



My parents hit the soft spot on me when I told them I really don't like the job. I tend to be quite equal, not cheat the system to get more out of it, but of course I'm not going to be used either. My goodness, the Chinese do overtime, and don't get overtime pay. Boss claims even she doesn't, the chinese workers don't either, but it is expected there may be overtime involved. Sorry, but when I am already working way below minimum wage, I don't feel like throwing in extra hours for free is the way to go. Especially when my pay is still deducted if I take some time off half the day and there is no such thing as making up my hours. Just pure subtraction.

In the end, I was broken down into work and numbers. Nothing is me. I do things because I want to live out loud.