In continuing my realm of self-exploration, my friend said how he was looking at my AIM and Facebook profile, and my jest of Stephism comes off to some people as:
a) intimidated by you
b) think ur full of urself
c) just like this is weird let me distance myself
Though the good thing is that no one knows I am online unless they are on my AIM buddy list, or see my facebook profile unless added as a friend. Therefore, in response,
a) I know people are intimidated by me,
b) some do think I am full of myself, I've heard them talk behind my back
c) Like I wrote on a ice breaker game "I'm weird but that's okay."
When I approach strangers with my -hey what's up- personality, they can either dispell all of the above, or think all of the above. I know that. I've had people tell me they thought I was scary at first, until they talk to me and think my experiences are really cool. Then there are people who only hear me talk about my background in terms of backing up my argument and think I am full of myself. Then finally there are people who I approach with "Hi person I don't know, I'm Stephanie" or randomly just start blabbering to them.
Backpacking 5 weeks through Europe alone can get pretty lonely if you don't approach others and "sell" yourself, meaning approaching some strangers and opening up a conversation with them that makes them intersted in hanging out with you.
I don't know what the point of babbling all that, but when my friend said I should tone it down since most people don't understand me and percieve me as the above, then I thought...do I really need to change to fit in with others? Do I actually want to fit in with others? And in reality, I realized, that I really don't. I am me, accept me for who I am. I don't want to tone down my personality for the sake of other people.
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